Tuesday, January 8, 2019

Out

This... has been a long time coming.  If you follow me on any of my social medias (well, my side account on Twitter, my main one was suspended for saying fundamentally truthful things about TERFs and mean, but also honest, things about the president), then you likely already know this.  But I've been part of this card blogging community since almost before it even really was one, and I know a lot of you aren't on social media much, if at all, and plenty who are don't cross paths with me much, if at all.  So I feel it's important to state it here too.

I am gender fluid.

Further, the more I test the bounds of my femininity, the more obvious it becomes to me that the general lean to my gender is a lot more female than the male you knew me as.

From the time I started privately coming out to a few of my closer internet confidants in the summer to coming fully out into the open at the tail end of the 2018, I've experienced nothing but love and support.  Even as I continue struggling with a long, lingering bout of unrelated depression, for the first time in a long time, I feel genuinely hopeful for the future.  I have something to look forward to and strive for again.  I'm not nearly whole yet, but I have a better understanding of who I am than I ever have before.

Hopefully coming out here can be a pleasant, drama-free experience as well.  Looking back, it's clear to me that I had been feeling my way towards this point long before I began to consciously acknowledge or understand it.  So perhaps, if not this specifically, it's possible a few of you may have even guessed something was up with me when I hadn't even realized it yet myself.  I dunno.

But anyway, I'm still me.  I'm just working toward becoming the truest version of myself.  The blog, such as it is, will remain almost entirely about my cards and my art.  I don't intend to talk at length about this much on here unless it pertains to my creative endeavors or collecting in a pretty direct way.  I have all my social media outlets for that.

I will be happy to answer any questions you may have to the best of my ability, however.

Thank you for your time.  I have every intention of reeling off a decent little stretch of posts again soon.  If I play my cards right, there will be contests with fabulously passable prizes somewhere around my birthday in February.

Until our next...